phone calls

We talked for one hour ten minutes and seventeen seconds.
The reason I called you we discussed in the last five. We always talk we never speak.

Maybe one day we'll be able to resolve things, but for now we can't because even through hearing your voice I can't tell. We need to speak face to face. Because, you avoided the truth.

We both deserve a better reason. Because you know as soon as we're together again things will change all over again. We don't know what to expect and we have a whole year before that point. But once it's here we'll have to talk and work things out.

You say your moving on and things won't be the same, may I ask what you are moving past? We've ended almost a year ago and honestly you hurt me not the other way around. Then again, your probably leaving out the details that have so cleverly woven us together that you will never let me in on.

Last summer you were stupid, so you say, then why do you have to move on from it? Stupidity only gets you so far. I can account that to kissing you, you kissing me back and etc. But stupidity won't lead you to take someone out on date after date, to get them alone all the time, to whisper sweet nothings, to do everything possible to be with the person and most importantly stupidity won't lead you to say I love you. You knew what you were doing.

Your going to have to speak eventually. It's a long time off but at the same time maybe that's good we need to figure out what we are doing.

I need more than a sure let's be friends. I need you. The you whose always been there for me. The you who promised, " love you as you need me to love you always."