Blackest Eyes

You wanna know something that's weird to me? It's weird hearing my mom and your dad on the phone, and my mom describing the boy who makes me laugh, who brightens my day, who is my everything and it not being you. It was always suppose to be you.

Trains

I don't know what I'm doing, what's right or what's wrong. I don't know what I want. Except to stop worrying, I'd love if that could stop. I don't want to get mad, I don't want to feel like I'm underwater, I don't want to hear " I don't deserve you" when I don't feel that way at all. Most of all I don't want you to tell me how I feel, weather its deep down, or how I feel on the surface. I don't want to hear it's not you it's me, and know that it's both. I don't want to answer my phone thinking its going to be an okay conversation and wind up breaking up twice. I can't go through more of that. If you want just go. I know you don't want to but you make it sound like we should. So just go. Okay?

I'm Yours

Hello Morgan, Cause your the only one who reads this lol.

And even though you already know this I'm sure someone will come across it and then they can see it and know it.


I am Trevor Hall's. This fact makes me very happy. :)


Sincerly,
Isabella

You and I Both

For the first time in a long time.... I just want my best friend back. I regret last summer. I want things back to then. I don't want to feel this way but I do. My age is the same as always. Yet now, it stops you from even coming near me. I'm just that 15 year old girl from new york. Somehow, part of me ALWAYS knew it would come down to this.

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Take just this first verse and I can translate it into "us terms".
(I came up with all these ideas about us and you just agreed.)
(things didn't happen naturally, you hated my boyfriend so you kissed me.)
(Sure, I'll look on the brightside. I'll think about what got you through so much. The fact that when we were older, we could really try this, and make it work. Oh wait, you just told me that WILL never happen. thanks for that really. night before school started. great way to start the school year.)
(It's hard to balence everything without a best friend. really you try.)
(everything we say now it just turns into arguments.)
(you told me you wanted to be friends and you ment it, we haven't talked since.)
(so now i'll sit here and rant to morgan about how boys are dumb. and you messed up my life. and i don't want to see you next summer.)

(who am i kidding? I can't wait to see you. )


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.
( we had that, that long distance thing that people never believes works out. guess it doesn't.)

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
(That last night, the fact that the you the first boy I ever loved, said I love you to me in the middle of the night in the dark in just a perfect way. yep, I felt alive.)

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now,
Oh love, no
You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore, mmm...
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy
(Hmmmm moral of the story don't fall for boys from utah....their jerks. maybe you'll redeem yourself)


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free
(Really, I'm starting to give up on ever beign close with you again and I hate that, and I hate knowing your quite okay with it all. )

And it's okay if you have to go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang
(you always go.)
(It works both way, but its always me who has to speak first.)
(If you never call, I guess I'll e alright but I'll always wonder.)
(What could have been? You and i?)
(I know you have, but her still really? You blame my religion. Lets look at hers.)
(No matter what, we were tied up in each other. Remember? And When I'm with you...)


Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, out of words.
(the end. good bye. call me when you want me back in your life. I'm not dealing with backburner. OR off the stove.)



(I loved you then. I would maybe 10 years down the road. Right now, I just want you gone. Sorry.)

(The End.)

down down down to mephisto's cafe

If I were you, I would take this as a sign
Believe it's true, we were never meant to fly
And I owe you, I know you more than anyone alive
And I will not let go
They will not remember this song
No matter what we do we'll be wrong
They will not remember this song
No matter what we do we'll be wrong
I can't seem to see the seal we're breaking
I can't seem to see the seal we broke
I refuse to recognize your views
Someone shouted "Everything's for nothing"
Somebody shouted, "All is lose"
But I can't buy that nonsense too
Way back when the prophecies began
Do you think they really had a master plan
Or were they merely writing fables, stories?
I don't know but it has occurred to me
The punishment that they threaten constantly
It's only real if they could just convince me
We're going down, down, down to Mephisto's Cafe
Down, down, down to Mephisto's Cafe
we're going down
And the gears will spin and the sinners sin, but at least we'll give them hell
And the righteous few will spit on you, so bid them all farewell
We're going down, down, down to Mephisto's Cafe
We're going down (Right?) (Right!)
So fuck the flocks of sheep that keep amassing masses
Asses being led so far astray
And I won't claim to believe the things I read
Black books or agenda magazine
I'd rather see in shades of gray
If I were you, I would take this as a sign
Believe it's true, we were never meant to fly
And I knew you when you were you
Before they twisted all your views
Before you came unglued
We're going down, down, down to Mephisto's Cafe
Now everybody's telling taller tales
And I don't know who to believe
Ok, if your father really loves you more
What about the other families?
Finally, I met a man with kindness in his eye and fire in his heart
He said you'll never have to choose a side
It's rewarding but oh, the road is hard....
They broke him wide open
Like a dam and a cork that's holding everything inside
You can play the role of rebel
Just be sure to know your wrong from right
I remember it was years ago
You know I still count the days
You and I had quite a ways to go
I never once heard you complain
And you said
Don't crack, because you might not make it back
And if you do you will be alone and you can't live like that
Well I know when I'm wrong and I sure as hell ain't wrong this time
We're going down, down, down to Mephisto's Cafes

One More for Love

Dear Catalyst,
Maybe I didn't make myself clear, asking you to not be in my dreams was a polite request but since you refuse to cooperate I must demand that you stay away. Please. It's not that I don't like having you there when I close my eyes, but your not the one whose suppose to be there.... I hope you understand.
Love,
your Reaction

P.s. it's only while I wait for you to take my hand.