Breathe

So the past two weeks have been very interesting. I need to get down the events of Tuesday July 26th though before anything else. Adam ( yes Adam from March Adam) asked me if I wanted to hang out so I said sure! I missed that kid anyways the only time we'd seen each other was at grad parties so i told him i was in as long as food was involved. So we met up around 1:30 and we walked to Porky's our little outdoor resturant and him being just plain him, paid for me. My black raspberry shake, hot dog and half the giant fry pile that we ate all of! :)
I suggested heading to hyde park after so we did, and we headed down by the water and we found a tree providing a perfect amount of shade. We both just layed there looking up at the sunshine coming down through the leaves, enjoying the breeze off the water.

Now, we didn't say much, hardly any of it was meaningful but just each others presence was incredibly peaceful. We went through so much and then just completely fell out of touch. We never really had closure. But here we are, two friends, lying underneath a tree, just looking up and thinking about absolutely everything.

He walked me home then, after a stop at his house where we drank some lemonaide. At my house he came in and had some water before leaving. Then i walked him downstairs to see him out and he puts on his shoes and says "hug?" so we hug and we say like oh i'll miss you so much and ican't believe your leaving soon and just we'll always be as friends and i go to pull away and he grabs my neck and pulls my cheek towards him and kisses it " just as friends, thats for everything" and then he left. it was a perfect day with a perfect conclusion. its great knowing that God made everything great between us and left me with a great friend for a really long time. If that's my last chance to say goodbye to him, its a perfect one. Love you Adam. Don't forget me.

Good Life

Thing's are well pretty good. I leave in less than a week for Presbyterian Youth Trienium and I cannot wait for this wonderful expirence with 5,000 youth from alll of the world. It's going to be a crazy great expirence starting with my comissioning on sunday at church! :)

I made the dish ambrosia for a church picnic tonight. It looks soooo yummy :) I really hope other people like it. Its marshmellows, yougurt, whip cream and fruit sooo good! :)

Trevor and I made it to 8 months yesterday, with lots of bumps and things but hey its high school these things happen.

I'm really considering not taking ap chem next year and waiting for senior year instead, i just don't think i can handle it. I would also much rather fit yearbook in there too. We shall see i have a bit of time left in summer.

The best news is that I passed my first ever AP exam! After all the worry, the late nights studying my brain out trying to understand what on earth was going on finally it all payed off. I got a 3! WOOOO! :)

This is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it. :)

Woke up in London yesterday
Found myself in the city near Piccadilly
Don't really know how I got here
I got some pictures on my phone

New names and numbers that I don't know
Address to places like Abbey Road
Day turns to night, night turns to whatever we want
We're young enough to say

Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life

To my friends in New York, I say hello
My friends in L.A. they don't know
Where I've been for the past few years or so
Paris to China to Col-or-ado

Sometimes there's airplanes I can't jump out
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about

When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in

Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life

Hopelessly
I feel like there might be something that I'll miss
Hopelessly
I feel like the window closes oh so quick
Hopelessly
I'm taking a mental picture of you now
'Cuz hopelessly
The hope is we have so much to feel good about

Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life

Oh yeah
Good, good life
Good life
Ooh

Listen
My friends in New York, I say hello
My friends in L.A. they don't know
Where I've been for the past few years or so
Paris to China to Col-or-ado

Sometimes there's airplanes I can't jump out
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about

dear people who invade my dreams

Dear you know who you are who keep invading my dreams,
Can you stop please?
I don't know whats worse, dreaming about you every time i close my eyes or reading over the words you wrote to me and realizing they mean absolutely nothing now.
Please just stay out of my dreams you'd make my life so much easier. I don't want to believe that dreams are what our heart wishes but unfortunately i'm pretty sure that's what mine are. I'm sorry i feel this way. It's not by choice.
love
you know who.