AH! So much has been going on in my life its absolutely crazy. Here are the main things
1) Trevor and I aren't even friends at this particular moment. We're just in each others lives but i've gotten so sick of all of his crap that I just don't care at this particular moment. Well I do. This kinda really sucks. But it needs to happen. Just somedays it doesn't feel that way.
2) I am happy. FINALLY. My friend adam was home from school this week. Well last week now, and the Adam from March Adam/ I went over to his house and I don't really know how it happened. It just did. We kissed and it was like the burden of Trevor was just completely lifted off my shoulders and i feel great! Finally. I can't even explain! Adam isn't home again till thanksgiving but we decided maybe by then we'd be ready to discuss dating :)
There's a lot more than that but i have to head to school. Hopefully you read this :) <3
Monday, October 18, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Chinese Chicken
It's been one week since you looked at me
Cocked your head to the side and said "I'm angry"
Five days since you laughed at me saying
"Get that together come back and see me"
Three days since the living room
I realized it's all my fault, but couldn't tell you
Yesterday you'd forgiven me
but it'll still be two days till I say I'm sorry
Hold it now and watch the hoodwink
As I make you stop, think
You'll think you're looking at Aquaman
I summon fish to the dish, although I like the Chalet Swiss
I like the sushi
'cause it's never touched a frying pan
Hot like wasabe when I bust rhymes
Big like LeAnn Rimes
Because I'm all about value
Bert Kaempfert's got the mad hits
You try to match wits, you try to hold me but I bust through
Gonna make a break and take a fake
I'd like a stinkin achin shake
I like vanilla, it's the finest of the flavours
Gotta see the show, cause then you'll know
The vertigo is gonna grow
Cause it's so dangerous,
you'll have to sign a waiver
How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad
Trying hard not to smile though I feel bad
I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral
Can't understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of taking off my shirt
It's been one week since you looked at me
Threw your arms in the air
and said "You're crazy"
Five days since you tackled me
I've still got the rug burns on both my knees
It's been three days since the afternoon
You realized it's not my fault
not a moment too soon
Yesterday you'd forgiven me
And now I sit back and wait til you say you're sorry
Chickity China the Chinese chicken
You have a drumstick and your brain stops tickin'
Watchin' X-Files with no lights on
We're dans la maison
I hope the Smoking Man's in this one
Like Harrison Ford I'm getting frantic
Like Sting I'm tantric
Like Snickers, guaranteed to satisfy
Like Kurasawa I make mad films
Okay, I don't make films
But if I did they'd have a Samurai
Gonna get a set a' better clubs
Gonna find the kind with tiny nubs
Just so my irons aren't always flying off the back-swing
Gotta get in tune with Sailor Moon
'Cause the cartoon has got the boom anime babes
That make me think the wrong thing
How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad
Tryin' hard not to smile though I feel bad
I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral
Can't understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of losing my shirt
It's been one week since you looked at me
Dropped your arms to your sides
and said "I'm sorry"
Five days since I laughed at you and said
"You just did just what I thought you were gonna do"
Three days since the living room
We realized we're both to blame,
but what could we do?
Yesterday you just smiled at me
Cause it'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
It'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
It'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
Cocked your head to the side and said "I'm angry"
Five days since you laughed at me saying
"Get that together come back and see me"
Three days since the living room
I realized it's all my fault, but couldn't tell you
Yesterday you'd forgiven me
but it'll still be two days till I say I'm sorry
Hold it now and watch the hoodwink
As I make you stop, think
You'll think you're looking at Aquaman
I summon fish to the dish, although I like the Chalet Swiss
I like the sushi
'cause it's never touched a frying pan
Hot like wasabe when I bust rhymes
Big like LeAnn Rimes
Because I'm all about value
Bert Kaempfert's got the mad hits
You try to match wits, you try to hold me but I bust through
Gonna make a break and take a fake
I'd like a stinkin achin shake
I like vanilla, it's the finest of the flavours
Gotta see the show, cause then you'll know
The vertigo is gonna grow
Cause it's so dangerous,
you'll have to sign a waiver
How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad
Trying hard not to smile though I feel bad
I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral
Can't understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of taking off my shirt
It's been one week since you looked at me
Threw your arms in the air
and said "You're crazy"
Five days since you tackled me
I've still got the rug burns on both my knees
It's been three days since the afternoon
You realized it's not my fault
not a moment too soon
Yesterday you'd forgiven me
And now I sit back and wait til you say you're sorry
Chickity China the Chinese chicken
You have a drumstick and your brain stops tickin'
Watchin' X-Files with no lights on
We're dans la maison
I hope the Smoking Man's in this one
Like Harrison Ford I'm getting frantic
Like Sting I'm tantric
Like Snickers, guaranteed to satisfy
Like Kurasawa I make mad films
Okay, I don't make films
But if I did they'd have a Samurai
Gonna get a set a' better clubs
Gonna find the kind with tiny nubs
Just so my irons aren't always flying off the back-swing
Gotta get in tune with Sailor Moon
'Cause the cartoon has got the boom anime babes
That make me think the wrong thing
How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad
Tryin' hard not to smile though I feel bad
I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral
Can't understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of losing my shirt
It's been one week since you looked at me
Dropped your arms to your sides
and said "I'm sorry"
Five days since I laughed at you and said
"You just did just what I thought you were gonna do"
Three days since the living room
We realized we're both to blame,
but what could we do?
Yesterday you just smiled at me
Cause it'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
It'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
It'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Misconception
We broke up...because i'm in high school and i don't understand what he's going through.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Breathe
So the past two weeks have been very interesting. I need to get down the events of Tuesday July 26th though before anything else. Adam ( yes Adam from March Adam) asked me if I wanted to hang out so I said sure! I missed that kid anyways the only time we'd seen each other was at grad parties so i told him i was in as long as food was involved. So we met up around 1:30 and we walked to Porky's our little outdoor resturant and him being just plain him, paid for me. My black raspberry shake, hot dog and half the giant fry pile that we ate all of! :)
I suggested heading to hyde park after so we did, and we headed down by the water and we found a tree providing a perfect amount of shade. We both just layed there looking up at the sunshine coming down through the leaves, enjoying the breeze off the water.
Now, we didn't say much, hardly any of it was meaningful but just each others presence was incredibly peaceful. We went through so much and then just completely fell out of touch. We never really had closure. But here we are, two friends, lying underneath a tree, just looking up and thinking about absolutely everything.
He walked me home then, after a stop at his house where we drank some lemonaide. At my house he came in and had some water before leaving. Then i walked him downstairs to see him out and he puts on his shoes and says "hug?" so we hug and we say like oh i'll miss you so much and ican't believe your leaving soon and just we'll always be as friends and i go to pull away and he grabs my neck and pulls my cheek towards him and kisses it " just as friends, thats for everything" and then he left. it was a perfect day with a perfect conclusion. its great knowing that God made everything great between us and left me with a great friend for a really long time. If that's my last chance to say goodbye to him, its a perfect one. Love you Adam. Don't forget me.
I suggested heading to hyde park after so we did, and we headed down by the water and we found a tree providing a perfect amount of shade. We both just layed there looking up at the sunshine coming down through the leaves, enjoying the breeze off the water.
Now, we didn't say much, hardly any of it was meaningful but just each others presence was incredibly peaceful. We went through so much and then just completely fell out of touch. We never really had closure. But here we are, two friends, lying underneath a tree, just looking up and thinking about absolutely everything.
He walked me home then, after a stop at his house where we drank some lemonaide. At my house he came in and had some water before leaving. Then i walked him downstairs to see him out and he puts on his shoes and says "hug?" so we hug and we say like oh i'll miss you so much and ican't believe your leaving soon and just we'll always be as friends and i go to pull away and he grabs my neck and pulls my cheek towards him and kisses it " just as friends, thats for everything" and then he left. it was a perfect day with a perfect conclusion. its great knowing that God made everything great between us and left me with a great friend for a really long time. If that's my last chance to say goodbye to him, its a perfect one. Love you Adam. Don't forget me.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Good Life
Thing's are well pretty good. I leave in less than a week for Presbyterian Youth Trienium and I cannot wait for this wonderful expirence with 5,000 youth from alll of the world. It's going to be a crazy great expirence starting with my comissioning on sunday at church! :)
I made the dish ambrosia for a church picnic tonight. It looks soooo yummy :) I really hope other people like it. Its marshmellows, yougurt, whip cream and fruit sooo good! :)
Trevor and I made it to 8 months yesterday, with lots of bumps and things but hey its high school these things happen.
I'm really considering not taking ap chem next year and waiting for senior year instead, i just don't think i can handle it. I would also much rather fit yearbook in there too. We shall see i have a bit of time left in summer.
The best news is that I passed my first ever AP exam! After all the worry, the late nights studying my brain out trying to understand what on earth was going on finally it all payed off. I got a 3! WOOOO! :)
This is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it. :)
Woke up in London yesterday
Found myself in the city near Piccadilly
Don't really know how I got here
I got some pictures on my phone
New names and numbers that I don't know
Address to places like Abbey Road
Day turns to night, night turns to whatever we want
We're young enough to say
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life
To my friends in New York, I say hello
My friends in L.A. they don't know
Where I've been for the past few years or so
Paris to China to Col-or-ado
Sometimes there's airplanes I can't jump out
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about
When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life
Hopelessly
I feel like there might be something that I'll miss
Hopelessly
I feel like the window closes oh so quick
Hopelessly
I'm taking a mental picture of you now
'Cuz hopelessly
The hope is we have so much to feel good about
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life
Oh yeah
Good, good life
Good life
Ooh
Listen
My friends in New York, I say hello
My friends in L.A. they don't know
Where I've been for the past few years or so
Paris to China to Col-or-ado
Sometimes there's airplanes I can't jump out
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about
I made the dish ambrosia for a church picnic tonight. It looks soooo yummy :) I really hope other people like it. Its marshmellows, yougurt, whip cream and fruit sooo good! :)
Trevor and I made it to 8 months yesterday, with lots of bumps and things but hey its high school these things happen.
I'm really considering not taking ap chem next year and waiting for senior year instead, i just don't think i can handle it. I would also much rather fit yearbook in there too. We shall see i have a bit of time left in summer.
The best news is that I passed my first ever AP exam! After all the worry, the late nights studying my brain out trying to understand what on earth was going on finally it all payed off. I got a 3! WOOOO! :)
This is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it. :)
Woke up in London yesterday
Found myself in the city near Piccadilly
Don't really know how I got here
I got some pictures on my phone
New names and numbers that I don't know
Address to places like Abbey Road
Day turns to night, night turns to whatever we want
We're young enough to say
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life
To my friends in New York, I say hello
My friends in L.A. they don't know
Where I've been for the past few years or so
Paris to China to Col-or-ado
Sometimes there's airplanes I can't jump out
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about
When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life
Hopelessly
I feel like there might be something that I'll miss
Hopelessly
I feel like the window closes oh so quick
Hopelessly
I'm taking a mental picture of you now
'Cuz hopelessly
The hope is we have so much to feel good about
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life
Oh yeah
Good, good life
Good life
Ooh
Listen
My friends in New York, I say hello
My friends in L.A. they don't know
Where I've been for the past few years or so
Paris to China to Col-or-ado
Sometimes there's airplanes I can't jump out
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
dear people who invade my dreams
Dear you know who you are who keep invading my dreams,
Can you stop please?
I don't know whats worse, dreaming about you every time i close my eyes or reading over the words you wrote to me and realizing they mean absolutely nothing now.
Please just stay out of my dreams you'd make my life so much easier. I don't want to believe that dreams are what our heart wishes but unfortunately i'm pretty sure that's what mine are. I'm sorry i feel this way. It's not by choice.
love
you know who.
Can you stop please?
I don't know whats worse, dreaming about you every time i close my eyes or reading over the words you wrote to me and realizing they mean absolutely nothing now.
Please just stay out of my dreams you'd make my life so much easier. I don't want to believe that dreams are what our heart wishes but unfortunately i'm pretty sure that's what mine are. I'm sorry i feel this way. It's not by choice.
love
you know who.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Don't Wait
Getting Leah all ready for prom and looking through all the pictures made me really sad. Everything about this chapter is rushing by and this parts going to close sooner or later. It's her senior year next year. Then's she off to college even if its NCCC for the first two it's going to be weird. I'm so glad she's growing up and such and I am too. It's crazy but it's here weather we are ready for it or not.
Stopping ourselves from allowing who we are inside to burst out is like trying to keep the moon during an eclipse... impossible. So don't wait!
Stopping ourselves from allowing who we are inside to burst out is like trying to keep the moon during an eclipse... impossible. So don't wait!
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